20090809 엄마, 그만해요!

I hadn't done any ranting post for such a long time ; because basically I am trying to take things positively, no matter how much it irritated or annoyed me but somehow, I just can't stay positive everyday and this one matter kept making me annoyed from the moment I woke up today.

My mom ; she is 54 years-old this year and she is somehow a kind of a perfectionist when all of her four children weren't really like her. She often complained on how her children didn't follow her steps in doing things right and always nagged about it too but as children, my siblings and I weren't really taken back by what she said.

It's true we shared almost everything together, but she irritated me this morning but her never-ending complaints. She fought with my dad during breakfast, about someone forgot to lock the gates before we all went to sleep last night, leaving the front door to be unlock all night. Oh yes, that was creepy to know that I slept inside a house with its gate unlock all night. But one thing was that, my mom blamed my dad for not locking the gates. My younger sister and I tried telling her that our dad didn't even went out last night and the only person who went out before we went to sleep was her. In our house, it's a rule to have the last person who entered the house before we went to sleep at nights to be responsible in locking all the gate and door. She refused to admit it was her who forgot to lock the gate before of her perfection, but I strongly believed it was her who forgot to lock the gate because she was always forgetting things.

Then, when she came back from the market with my elder sister, she blamed my elder sister for mistakenly taken some things back to her own house, which was supposed to be my mom's. Yes, my elder sister lives somewhere else, not in the same house as us. She told my elder sister that she carelessly left those things untaken from the back of her car, causing my mom to take my elder sister's things instead. My elder sister told her that she didn't even know my mom put her things at the backseat of her car but once again, my mom refused to take the blame and continued to blame her all morning. You may not understand this situation I am writing about but if you were the one witnessing my mom complaining all morning about this matter, and you had heard my elder sister's side of the story, you will probably wanted to blame her too, like I did.

It will be a lie to say that I don't love my mom. I LOVE her, and she love me too, so I am thankful for that but sometimes this kind of attitude shown by her irritated her children, including me. She wanted to show her perfection so much, she couldn't take all the blame even when she was responsible. Just now she entered my bedroom and yelled at me for not hearing the delivery guy who was waiting outside the gate. She should had known I can't hear anything from outside when I am staying inside my bedroom, and it was her who was waiting for the delivery guy, which I wasn't even informed about! She should be the one waiting for him outside the house and hear it when the delivery guy was calling. Not me! See, she won't take any blame at all!

Because she is my mom, I am afraid to be honest to her. I just have to digest this irritating matter all by myself. I know I should be honest, to talk to her well about this thing but I am not sure. Perhaps I wish she could realize it all by herself. It's nice to have a mother like her, who supports me and loves me unconditionally, but when it comes to her perfectionist attitude, it irritates me.