This And That Life I Own.

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I have obvious reasons why I do not prefer if any of my classmates from college follow me on Twitter. It is not the case of arrogance or simply ignorance but this is a serious case of privacy. I am not quite fond of privacy when it comes to the things I write here but I am especially precise about what others will say when it comes to my Twitter account.

First of all, does anyone actually read the Twitter updates I have as my widget here in this solemn blog—because if anyone actually reads it, one will know more than what one should know about me.

I am practically an honest and open person when I am on Twitter. I would write about anything without thinking about the consequences. Yes, I would see your ugly sneakers and I will write shit about it openly on my Twitter account without the fear of you coming to me and butcher me down into pieces. Yes, I am that honest.

That is why aside from my Tumblr which is my ultimate secret life—Twitter is my second secret life. I am a different person when I am on Facebook and when I am at college. My classmates will only see me as a geek who reads and writes and wear boring clothes to class and does not care about anything else except to excel in examinations.

No, on Twitter I am not that person they see in college. I am a blunt obsessive fan girl who watches yaoi as if it is my daily drug. I am that girl who listens to Vocaloid as if those songs are my official crack. I am that person who sits for hours in my bedroom reading online mangas that range of melancholic tragic love story to gore psychological twisted murder cases. I am that oblivious girl who cares about nothing else but my interests in music and FT Island and anime and manga and yaoi—yes, I do like yaoi thank you very much—and all these things I do not want anyone to know.

So basically yes, I live two different lives. One is the clean-cut and conservative twenty-one year-old college student who is in her final year in college and the other is the obsessive fan-girl who is on her path to become an anime maniac who spends hours talking to herself about her love for fictional characters’ persona.

I want to make sure they only know me for the clean-cut personality I show, not the scary secret life I own when I am at home. I do not want anyone from college—aside from several who still manages to follow me on Twitter—to know how crazy I am over fictional characters. No, I do not need anyone to think I am scary and weird. I am already a geek. Don’t make me a weirdo too.

This may exposes the two lives I currently live in but who cares when I don’t have readers to read my updates anyway. I just need this to get my emotions out. I don’t care if I don’t have followers. I just want to have a place to return and be able to write my heart out.