I do not think I actually start my blog to become blog famous—I mean, I do not have any intention in building up popularity through my blog. I began writing on blog to be able to have one place where I am free to be my self as I am more reachable through words—if you understand what I mean—and I want to keep my blog as a place where I could freely write what I feel and like, rather than what someone else feel and like.
It is not honest to say that I am perfectly okay with anyone who feels like becoming blog famous. It just that I do not walk on the same path as any other bloggers—I do not write to grab attention, I write to express my intention. I do not detest the population that feels like they want to become blog famous—because none of it has anything to do with me—but if the link to their blogs are literally flooding my timeline on whatever social network website I am currently on, it somehow gets on my nerve, seriously.
I know you are a blog famous person—oh yes, I do sometimes click on your blog whenever I feel like I should read the words you have properly written—but to have it flooding my timeline is rather sickening. You could post it once, I get it. You might post it twice, I could still understand. But trying to post it for at least five freaking time, oh you got to be fucking kidding me.
Hands up, I am not the rightful person to say anything about this. I am not judging anyone—even if I do, I will be do the judging all by my self, no verbal need—but your sickening routine is making me sick in the process. It is fine if you want to become blog famous and I do not feel the same but please be more considerate than someone here—I am waving my hand sarcastically at you—does not bother to look at the link of your blog for more than two times in one night. You can post as much updates as you like but is it appropriate to post it five to six times on my timeline, all in one night?
It will be a lie to say that I do not once feel as if I want to be blog famous—who would not like popularity, right. Yet when I discover that some of my friends could actually find this haven of mine and read all the words I genuinely write from my feelings and emotions—it feels like a betrayal. This is my safe haven—this is the place where I could always come back to write whatever I want and like. I do not need people to stalk or to read my updates. I am not hungry for attention or popularity of stats number. I just want to be free to write. I do not want people to judge. I do not want to be blog famous. I just want to be my self.
I could not and might not be able to write to satisfy someone else, ever. I am a person who writes what is on my mind. Why would in a million years would I bother to write about what someone else want to read? I am not calling for readers, I am not seeking for popularity or comments. I just want this to be a place where I could write—putting aside my horrible grammar and vocabularies, fuck them all—the place where my emotions are visible in words rather than voice. This is the place where I feel as if I keep all of my memories and bits of my life—I do not need someone else to read and judge. Even if there are readers—I thank you all from the bottom of my heart—they are just readers and they do not judge me. Do not judge my words, do not judge me and do not judge my blog.
I am not blog famous.
I am a writer in my own tiny little world.
This is my wonderland and perhaps I am still the Alice of this tiny wonderland.
I am not pointing this post to anyone out there who is blog famous. Keep up the good work, dear blog writers. It is okay to taste the sweetness of becoming blog famous. I am not with the major flow; I am on my own tiny world. I am that minority that hides in my own safe haven. You are welcome to read and to share my experiences in life as I do what normal people will do—I will not stay all optimistic about everything. This is a blog for expression and freedom to write whatever I want and like. I am not blog famous—I might never be one, forever.
This is my life and the dramatic effects.
This is my safe haven.
And this is still my wonderland, I am the Alice and I am the only one.
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