I am dedicating this rant post to an unlikely friend of mine—who I am officially declaring as one of those friends I would not care about anymore—because she is pissing me off big time. Seriously, I have been calling and sending text messages to her like a maniac, wondering if she would come to class because we were supposed to have the presentation of our first assignments and this week is the last week for anyone to do so. I have been trying to reach her for one hour yet she did not reply my text messages and she did not answer my phone call.
What the fuck is wrong with you, anyway?
I am literally concerned that you might miss your chance to present your assignment and you are the one who was so concerned about the first assignment since last week and yet, you chose not to attend class and did not even call me in return to give some freaking explanation. Oh God, you are seriously pissing me off big time.
The truth is that I have to force my self to have a smile on my face every time you are talking and even though I silently resent whatever you have to say—especially about your past, because obviously girl, just move on with your damn life—I am trying to be a friend. I endure the hardship to actually teach you in things you don't understand—although you often repay me back with cynical remarks in front of everyone else occasionally. I follow you and try to be a good friend but this is a little too extreme for me to endure, girl. You are literally pulling me around like some sort of slave and drag me along into your mess. I am not satisfied. This is not friendship, this is making me as your friend with benefit.
Oh damn it, I don't care if you are going to find my blog once I make my presentation about blog this Friday. I don't give a fuck about you and your nonsense anymore. Let us face it, you continue to talk about your ruined past relationship as if your world only involve your heartbreak. Hello, open your eyes and see that no one cares about you. I can't take this anymore. I could no longer endure this painful friendship.
You know what, I don't give a damn about you anymore. You can fail and you can success, I would care less. You can fall and you can stand up, I don't want to know about you anymore. You could do whatever you want and continuously talk about your heartbreak as if no one else suffers heartbreaks, I would not give a damn about it. You are a pathetic creature who only knows to care about your self but not the others who could possibly care about you too. You ruined this friendship.
I am so sorry but I can't never look at you the same way I look at my other friends.
You choose this option, regardless. I try to be nice, but you push me away. I try to listen, but you are talking too much. I try to help, but you are draining me out of my life. You can do whatever you want, just don't bother dragging me along into your mess. You should know how to live in your mess. Don't look after me anymore. Know that after this, all my smiles and laughs are not sincere and I am putting on a facade. I don't like you, but only because you make me hate you.
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