The has been one unexplainable feeling lingering somewhere inside of me—keeping me alive yet slowly killing every part of me like some kind of damn parasite that is determined in vanquishing me off this planet Earth. No, I mean—I am sometimes a bit exaggerating about things but surely everyone knows how freaking bad one undetermined feelings could make a person. Especially when that feeling is none other than the unfriendly friend—guilt.
God, I have been drowning my self in the endless sea of guilt lately. I have committed so many freaking sins. Probably this is the reason why I have been feeling sick for almost a week—because I am feeling guilty out of all the feelings I could feel. Guilt—I hate this word, and even more, I hate to experience it.
If I am given a chance to apologize regardless what I have done, I am going to apologize right away. God, please forgive this bad person who You allowed to live on the surface of the Earth, inhaling Your precious air and living a life that she could not appreciate. I am so sorry. I am sorry. I am just so sorry I have not try to become someone better than I am right now. God, please take this guilt away. Save me from continuously drowning. I want to stay afloat, please. I want to save my self. Take this guilt away.
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