There is a weird sensation growing inside of me the moment I realize that the one boy I truly love—my first love—is currently in a relationship where he seems happier and livelier. In many ways I know that the girl you are in love with is far better than the girl I have always been in your eyes. She seems to be a nice girl—of what I know a girl who would make you feel as if you are on cloud nine. I am happy that you are holding onto your happiness, while I am here holding onto the broken pieces of our memories. Do you know what, throughout our friendship that is now just a line of vague explanation we both have to understand—I am always happy to think that I will stay next to you through thick and thin because I truly do love you, even until now. As crazy as this sound, I am still in love with you. How can I let go of you and the feelings I have for you, although now that you are happy with her. You are too precious for me to let go. Holding on the feeling I have for you keep me happy, regardless the heartless reality that is hitting me. I will always wish for your happiness with her. I am not the one for you, not even in my dreams. I am not going to wait, but allow me to hold onto our memories as long as I could because every time I hear your name, my heart breaks a little. I don't need you to end this heartbreak. I need you to give me a reason for my self to let go and eventually end this heartbreak by my self.
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