I could see that love is budding between some of my friends. I like to see these couples rising from among our friends—but in the same time it starts to be freaking awkward. I mean, to work with couples and see them together in projects creeps the hell out of me. I am fine with them being together all the time but do they really have to let the whole world knows that they are officially couples? I don't think that is an appropriate move, especially when you are dating someone from the same circle of friends.
Okay, I admit that I am jealous. So what, I am a human and I am allowed to be jealous. I am pathetically single and in love with a celebrity that doesn't even know I exist. Oh come on, just admit I am quite a pathetic one in this matter. I have trouble finding love and being in love. My past relationships—not so well. Each ends either tragically or just horribly. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me but I don't think love and me have any kind of chemistry at all.
The worst part is that, I freaking hate Chemistry subject in high school too but that is totally out of the discussion. Who would have a great time memorizing the Periodic Table when the only memory of studying Chemistry in high school is the moment when we spilled some kind of acid and we ran like crazy children to the sink to wash our itchy and reddish hands. Oh, those memories.
Back to the matter of discussion, I admit that I would not say no to love right now. I have been single like way too long and I think that this is the time for me to open my heart and learn to accept the reality. Let bygones be bygones. I don't have any grudge against boys for the mistakes I have done with love in the past—like some of the girl I know in college—and I am absolutely fine in welcoming a boy who would love me as much as I could love him. Love is a beautiful thing, I would love to cherish it.
Guess I would have to celebrate Valentine's Day alone again like a loser next year. Let me recall the last time I celebrated Valentine's Day—of which I believe to be two years ago, perhaps. Oh my God, it has seriously been two years since the last time I actually celebrated Valentine's. What a loser.
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