As May Finally Comes.

It is the blissful May month for everyone. On Saturday, my mother’s family welcomed a new family member as my elder cousin got married. We welcomed the new family member with a small yet warm reception followed with a birthday party of my other cousin’s son. Although I don’t have the time to actually talk to the bride yet but at least I want her to know that I welcome her into the family and just hope that she could cope with the loudness of our family. Besides, I can’t find any other family who could talk about nudity and sexual experiences of married couples with teenagers who are half my age except for my family. Oh, the horror.

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Welcoming the May means that I am welcoming more depressions since my father insisted that I quickly make up my mind and choose one course to take up in college. Classes are going to start on May 31 and I am worrying since I only have less than four weeks to actually think about what I want to study for the next two and a half year. I am torn between choices whereas my mother had gleefully told me that if I don’t want to continue my studies than I should just go look for a job. Hey, who would want to hire a teenager with a passable result in SPM with no job experiences anyway? I know who, a fool.

My driving test is approaching and I could say that I have no confidence that I am going to ace the test. I try to be optimistic but my pessimistic side just continues to make me feel worst. I know I should be like, hey I could absolutely ace the test but I am horribly feeling like I am so going to die. Although I am admitting that I love driving because somehow I feel as if it gives me freedom, I can’t help but to think that the journey for me to own a license is just too far away for me to reach.

My Facebook wall has been flooded with posts by my friend who is worrying about me. I haven’t been posting any updates because I have run out of ideas. Besides, I get bored with these stuffs pretty much faster than anyone else in this world. The next thing I know, I might be ignorantly abandoned my Facebook account like how I ignored my MySpace account. I found no joy in being active with these accounts anymore. Only Twitter give me the comfort of being somewhere out there in the internet with many other people.

I have this month all booked throughout the weekends. Next week I am going to Lumut with my family for a Family Day celebration with my mother’s company. We are not going to bring along everyone (my elder sister and my elder brother are definitely not going) but I am going to bring my nephew, Amirul along. We are set to sleep in one chalet with my mother’s lousy friend and I am thankful it will only last for one night. I can’t stand her and her presence, at any cost!

Other than that, I am hoping that May will bring me more joy than April. I hope I could learn more new things and in the same time recuperate from this awful writer’s block so that I could update my fanfic. I actually pray that I could get an answer to my confusing regarding my college life soon.