눈물이 흐른다 .

Title; 눈물이 흐른다
Translation; Tears Are Flowing
Side-Note; When It Flows, It Just Flows .

I came across a new short series of novel graphic today while shopping.
It was a Malay-translated novel graphic from a manhwa (Korean comic) which was drawn in 2004 called ‘Pak Cik Kaki Panjang’ or in the original title ‘키다리 아저씨 (Daddy Long-Legs)’. I bought the entire series consisted of two books because I was a huge fan of the movie itself, starring Ha Jiwon some times ago.

Oh, it was worth my money to buy the two books!
I love how the comic flows, just as good as the movie itself. Although I know the end, I can’t stop but to cry at the ending in which my mom and my younger sister thought that I was crazy to cry over some comics. I can’t believe I am crying like crazy. Even better that it is in Malay in which happened to the language I am most fluent in. I can’t stop crying even after I finished the two novel graphics! I cried the most at the part where the main girl realized that the daddy long-legs she was searching for had always been someone closed to him and when she found the room where the daddy long-legs kept the memories of her as his memories were fading day by day until he died. Crap, I am still crying while typing this.

After finishing the novel graphics, I went into my bedroom and switched on the laptop to work on my fanfic in which hadn’t been progressing as well as I thought it might be. I randomly chose a song to listen to while working on the chapters (because songs helped me to get into the angst mood better) when my favorite song from FT Island, Heaven was played through my headphone.

OH GOD!
Why must you give me a sad song to hear after I cried a river over some novel graphics?
And unfortunately, I just continued crying instead of working on my fanfic. Gosh, I am such a cry baby my self! I couldn’t even type a word as I cried. While listening to Heaven, I remembered the short monologue by Jaejin at the end of the music video, in which he said that he would like to bravely confess to the noona he liked about his feelings and that he wanted that noona to treasure all of their memories together before saying that he loved her. He sounded so innocent and pure about his love even at the end of his life. Dammit, why must everyone got beaten up or killed off in the end of FT Island’s music videos back then?

Argh ~ both of the things that made me cried ended with the main male characters dying. I am so sad! I can’t seem to take the part in the song Heaven that goes “…미안해 너 혼자 이렇게 보내서, 나만 여기 남아 있어서, 몸서리 치게 니가 보고 싶은데, 사랑해 하늘에서도 행복해줘, 그 곳에서 기다려줘, 내가 갈 때까지만 잘가 (I’m sorry that I let you let go alone like this, that I remain here, I am missing you like crazy, I love you, please be happy in heaven, please wait for me up there until the day I follow you, goodbye…)”. I seriously love that part of the song from the moment I first heard it (kudos to the brilliant writer of the song, Ahn Youngmin). It felt as if the song was sung by the two main girls who were left by their beloved ones in both of novel graphics and the music video.

Right now, my eyes sore a lot.
I confessed; I am very emotional. I could cry over anything! So go on and give me a very sad love story and you’ll see me crying a river from the beginning right until the end. I am just a sucker for sad things. Like how my younger sister told me, I have extra amount of tears that let me cry whenever I wanted. This must be my talents then ㅠ.ㅠ

I need to go back to writing.

Background Music; Heaven by FT Island.