Side Notes; Written in Pain (Along With a Hum of Missing You Song)
Today must be one of the most unluckiest day of my life - I woke up too early for a Sunday morning, I was left alone at home while my parents brought my younger sister to a hairdresser to get a treatment for her hair (and along the way they went shopping for new stationeries without me ㅠ.ㅠ) and I hurt my self so badly, I shamelessly cried as loud as I could in front of my parents, sisters and most embarrassingly, in front of my nephews and brother-in-law.
아 ~ 너무 창피해요!
진짜 싫어… 난 바보야!
왜 울고에요??
Ever since I got the surgery, my legs are like, very vulnerable to any injuries. I could get cramps even at slight awkward movements and my heels could get very tired even after 10 minutes of walking (I used to be able to walk for 30 minutes without complaining about how tired my legs were ㅎㅎㅎ) but today, I suffered the worst cramps ever in my 18 years of life while getting up after sitting on the floor to play with my nephew. I feel like a 70 years-old grandmother for having that cramp. I cried because of the pain, causing panic among my family members; especially my dad who is practically the only person in the house who are still very concern about my legs after my surgery (while even my self hadn’t been paying much attention to my own legs). I am so embarrassed - my brother-in-law must have thought that I was out of my mind to cry like a baby! But it was so painful; I can’t hold my feelings anymore at that moment. I can even sit down because of the pain!
내 다리를 다쳤어요…좀 도와주세요 ㅠ.ㅠ
I’d been scolded by my dad, as he told me to be more careful in the future. I had currently told my parents that I wanted to stop my physiotherapy sessions because it hurt so much. Two weeks ago, I went for the session and both of my feet were swelling badly after I came back home. I am tired of the pain and I know I can do all the exercises at home by myself way better than how I did at the center. I hate the pain - it could be equivalent to the pain of laboring (or maybe I am just using an excessive comparison here, sorry). I would always end up with tears in my eyes after each session due to the pain. I decided to stop the sessions for good - I am not going to suffer the pain anymore; not after 11 weeks of painful sessions. The therapist never stop when I groaned and yelled in pain when she (I mentioned her name several times in my Twitter updates - most of the time as rants).
I can’t stand the pain anymore.
너무 아파요!
Right now, I should calm my self down by watching my favorite movie; Kala Malam Bulan Mengambang. It is my favorite Malay movie from my favorite Malay movie director. Ah ~ my legs are still hurting like crazy. I would like to laugh off my pain away with some cynical humor movie like this awesome movie. Oh pain, please go away.
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